food cravings and Tiny Dancer moves

She's moving around so much today that it's a little freaky. I see my belly undulating. It's amazing enough to get me to stop what I'm doing, every time, just to watch her move. Part of my reactions have been amazement, hesitation, annoyance and fascination. I can't tell what body part is moving but it's pretty cool. Sometimes she gets going when I'm really tired and that's when I get annoyed. It's not at her, she doesn't even realize she's sharing a space! But sometimes I just want to fall alseep, or stay asleep and she doesn't. Sometimes I can ignore it and sometimes I can't. Either way, she is more and more starting to make herself known!

And speaking of her moving around... I've started a cupcake and coconut craving. It doesn't have to be coconut cupcakes but both things make me happy. I found a great iced tea from Harney & Sons called "Organic Bangkok" and recently went to Magnolia Bakery for a box of cupcakes.

I actually just got up from my computer, went to the fridge and am eating the last cupcake of a box-of-six Magnolia Bakery cupcakes.

So what will happen shortly is that Tiny Dancer, after a sugar rush, will start to move around. I don't know if she's "bouncing off the walls" from sugar or just because I've eaten something. I try not to overdo the sugar, but I love me some cupcakes! The icing is really important. I don't think that Magnolia Bakery has the best cupcakes in the city but they are very good. And there's a new store of it just across the street from my husband's office. So after an appointment, I went to get some cupcakes, 2 slices of cake (one of them was coconut, of course), and then we took the train home together.

A co-worker has a 4-month-old at home and she was telling me how she ate a lot of chocolate one day last week and after breastfeeding her daughter, the little baby was wide awake from 1am-5am that morning. Poor kid was having a high from too much caffeine! And my co-worker's doctor told her that it can take 14 hours for a baby to have the caffeine leave her system entirely. That's a long time for such a small body.

I guess any dreams I had of going out for sushi and sake after the baby is born will have to wait for her to not be breastfeeding as well as us being able to take time to actually go out to dinner.

My entire thought about being a mother of a newborn is simply being exhausted all the time, and dirty. No time to shower or sleep. Thinking of it this way seems torturous but whenever I see a little infant I'm usually amazed and just sit there watching him or her. I can't imagine how intrigued I will feel about my own baby.

Either way, I think it's time for a cup of coconut green tea.